Questions of Travel – Michelle de Kretser – Study Notes (7144 words)
I started these notes, in order to prepare a review of this fabulous novel. It is awe inspiring both in its thematic range and in the authenticity and intimacy of the local life of the story. I greatly admire this work and, as you can see, once I started, well, what can I say?
Spoiler Warning. These notes are a summary of the entire novel, including the conclusion.
3 – foreshadowing of early death – Laura was ‘prey to the sense of something ending before its time.’
5-8 – ‘Laura would beg for the stories attached to these marvels.’ She is fascinated by imaginative journeys in Narnia and stories behind objects of exotic travel – Hester’s intense romantic/erotic hopes with her boss Nunn dashed – hoped annual trips to Paris would provide exotic spark needed – Hester tells Laura romanticised, embroidered, dramatic version of travel as ‘journeys undertaken in order to seek out delightful new places’ whereas for Hester it is really ‘a kind of flight.’ – Hester recalls poignant, gravely spoken lines
‘Away is hard to go, but no one/Asked me to stay.’
9-11 – Ravi’s life ran to its (the sea’s) murmur of change – his life will be one of movement and growth – tourists disappointed at the ‘third rate copies of home.’ – their experience of travel is bound by their rigid and predetermined expectations – # ‘Ravi’s imagination worked to penetrate the enigma of each dwelling…’
12-16 – ‘It (Sydney) squinted over its brown back at Africa, at India; an old old memory of wholeness stirred.’ – Laura troubled by her powerful awareness ‘ that she was going to die…no one on earth would be spared – Laura’s vain, egotistical father Donald Fraser cruelly sees her as ugly ‘the repository of all that was massive and defective in Donald’s lineage… the runt has copped the brunt.’ – Laura ‘oppressed’ by having ‘an old bag’ as a companion – linked to her father’s unkind perceptions.
17-18 travel and voyages of exploration as ‘ a great global enterprise that ran on greed, curiosity and the human reluctance to stay still.’
19 – Laura’s vision of God as ‘The Absent-Minded Almighty’ as she washed away the ant in the bowl – foreshadows later events.
20-23 – Ravi’s sense of the world as boundless ‘had been reduced by the mapmaker to a trifle.’ ‘He was visited by the same sensation that came when a wave pulled free from beneath his feet. Things tottered and plunged.’ The author again focuses on perceptions of travel and the disturbance caused by sudden shifts and revelations. Brother Ignatius – ‘Geography is destiny. It is old. It is iron.’
24 – Laura’s brother Hamish is killed in a car accident – Cameron’s cruel chinese burn – ‘Back teeth together’ becomes a motto for Laura in moments of crisis
25 – Carmel considers adding extension for tourists but rejected by bank
26 – Hester throws away her travel case – ‘…she was struck afresh by the fraudulence of souvenirs that suggested pleasure while commemorating flight.’
27-35 – Laura realises her artistic limitations ‘an eye is not a photocopier.’ -she bitterly disappointed at missing Paris trip – regrets not having two weeks to dream of Paris as she finds out well before announcement – misses ‘fourteen days of sophisticated depravity in garrets overlooking the Seine…’ – reads novels as guide books ‘looking for direction on which to turn.’ – sees Sydney through literature and as a tourist
36-41 – Ravi’s extended day dreams – link to Laura through ‘The Police’ music – background of civil war and increasing local and distant atrocities – family of Ravi’s friend Mohan Dabrera given asylum in Norway – foreshadows Ravi’s pathway
42-44 – Laura was ‘yearning for irrevocable acts and large, sincere, nineteenth century fictions – Hester dies – leaves Laura an inheritance – ‘She set out to see the world.’
45-51 – ‘Laura had read widely to ready herself for adventure…But no one mentioned the sheer tedium of being a tourist.’ – visits Bali – various significant comments and observations on the experience of travel
52-56 – Laura in India – an exploration of cultural sites with incomplete knowledge and growing sensual awareness – brief affair with Sanjay
57-61 – Laura in London – for an Australian ‘you came to London for the first time and discovered what you already knew.’- unusual feelings ‘in the first floating, glassy days.’ – ‘Laura knew herself incurably alien. English in the mouths of the English was a dream language, an affair of allusion and code.’ – Laura needed to escape into ‘calm, expensive districts’ in the distinctive Autumn. – sees fall of Berlin Wall in an electrical goods shop – late Autumn sun makes room seem more like a painting – romantic ideas of ‘overseas’ gradually broken down to become more realistic – de Mel family leaving for Canada – discussion of atrocities committed in ongoing civil war – Ravi ‘spent days dreaming of cities where everything was new and clean…it was the old human dream of the good place.’ – Ravi urged not to go by old shopkeeper acquaintance
#71-79 – Laura flies to Rome to escape Winter misery – fascinated by architectural marvels of Rome – literary allusions to Katherine Mansfield – tourists expect ‘everything would be different’ if they slavishly followed the travel guides ‘like missal.’ – but Laura experiences her ‘starburst of joy’ without it – De Kretser emphasises how important prior knowledge is in perceptions of travel – Laura sees the middle ages Italian landscapes as she watches out of the window of the train – links Mansfield’s predicaments with her own disconnection from the cold, wintry scene – ‘In every direction, leafless perspectives delivered lectures on ‘fearful symmetry’ – Blake allusion – Laura makes friends in a youth hostel, especially with Masuko – Laura wants to visit Saint-Jean-de-Luz as Patrick White set his first novel ‘The Aunt’s Story’ there – ‘Dream of transcending tourism wasn’t available’ as ‘two was a group barricaded behind we’ – In Madrid Laura experiences ‘the white annihilation of snow.’ – time tracked by Madonna song ‘Like a Prayer’ – has passport stolen in Cintra – ‘too exhausted to continue- ‘senseless, this shuttling – pleasures ‘transient and casual: touristic, in a word.’ Laura enjoys Lisbon – ‘It returned Laura to childhood and to India, which is to say unmodern places’ – historical voyages from here shifted her view of Australia as isolated like a stretched starfish – light shining one night like ‘gleaming black glass…What are you doing here? This was travel, marvellous and sad.’ – three weeks in Lisbon stays with Laura, in sense details, forever- ‘Who can explain the sympathy that runs swift as a hound and as stubbornly between people and places? It involves memory, prejudice, accidents of weather.’ – contrasts large and trivial issues – food crumbs and lack of money.
80-1 – Ravi meets Malini de Zilva, marries her and Hiran is born six months later
82-86 – Laura becoming more settled in London – ‘Piece by piece, she was assembling a city of her own.’ – does house sitting – travels to Antwerp, Istanbul, Vienna, Fes, Manhatten was ‘moving’ – There was such innocence in their hymning of a century that had been enchanted, then.’ – tourists of different nations respond and act very differently – brutality of Sarajevo on television – ‘Her sympathy was engaged, her interest limited.’ – Laura goes for Ramsey travel guide job – critical comments on travel guides
87-93 – Ravi was ‘unnetworked’ in IT. ‘Young boy tourism on beach – teaches IT at old school – ‘He wondered how many seemingly self-evident truths would crumble over the course of his life.’ – cleaner reveals deep social divisions and hatreds – Malini gets a job – loves and hates passionately – money eases their domestic tensions
94-99 – Laura considers flying home – ‘There was the illusion of flight and the safety of tether.’ – Laura meets Sri Lankan family while studying IT – discovers their brutal history and misjudgements – links to Ravi’s story
#100-103 – ‘Long afterwards, when Ravi tried to picture happiness, it was those evenings that came.’ – They discuss emigration but Malini is fiercely dedicated because of her father’s influence. – ‘Who’ll be left if we all emigrate? Only idiots and brutes.’ – ‘That’s the way with people, you have to point out what’s under their eyes.’
104-113 – start of Laura’s relationship with Theo Newman – time marker in death of Kurt Cobain – alternate perceptions of time passing – Theo records 9 minutes of video every Saturday to ‘commemorate’ the last nine minutes of his mother’s life – ‘They’re pointless and vital.’- Theo working on a DPhil on nostalgia in 20th century European novel – pub discussion of Dystopian fairy tale of holocaust prompted by Demedenko literary fraud – as a child Theo fascinated by maps – ‘…the child Theo lost himself in the map’s invitation to imagine.’ – ‘Theo Newman kept the past in a brass-bound chest, drew out memories like ropes of pearls.’ Theo brilliant but dilettante, and increasing alcohol abuse – Laura recalls domestic scenes in Sydney – ‘Why should this now pierce as if Laura had swallowed glass.’ – Theo’s mother overloaded her house with artifacts ‘…like anyone making up for losses.’ – Laura’s love of anomaly pictures reflects on her natural mode of perception; to see difference and alternate perceptions – Laura craves Theo’s presence – Theo becomes the voice of de Kretser’s wider social and cultural observations
114-117 – Ravi works on hospital computer – annoyed at workers holding on to fabrications, as he did himself, as a child, at the dentist – ‘Why did people hold on to lies like that?’ – Malini signs a petition – Carmel angry that she is placing herself in danger – foreshadowing in ‘Are you mad…Are you asking to be killed or worse?’ – helps Carmel in home hairdressing – shows Malini’s compassion for the poor and powerless; feels strong commitment to engage in social justice action but angry with Ravi’s low expectations and ‘…a profoundly cruel assessment: ‘You expect no better of people.’
118-120 – Theo constantly distracted from his uni work – arranges lively Sunday evening get togethers – Laura meets Bea Morley and establishes a life friendship – Laura has brief affair with Brazilian financial analyst
121-123 – Laura invited to Bea’s wealthy family’s weekender in Berkshire – notices brick possibly from Elizabethan age – this meant that the Morleys were deep rooted in the area, unlike her parents – ‘What was the modern age if not movement, travel, change?’ – Theo had commented ‘…that the twentieth century was best represented by an unwilling traveller…millions of soldiers…homeless…Now the world is full of people who didn’t belong where they end up and long for the places where they did.’ – Theo’s childhood memories, nature and culture – Laura sees it as backwards – he was ‘…at that stage of ripeness where the attractive surface held an intimation of decay.’ – Laura felt ‘…that her life was dribbling away unused’ – works in restaurants and house sitting – Laura sees metal tea pot she loves – Tracey Lacey visits.
131-2 – Ravi hopes for job in Silicon valley – takes job as assistant maths lecturer in Columbo – Malini escapes Carmel’s judgements – Ravi saw his wife and child asleep, and thought, Who are these people? He grappled with feelings of suffocation and fear.’
133-5 – Ravi’s mother gives Ravi’s son Hiran a family viewfinder which he adores – Malini thought her father had been killed by a Tamil Tiger truck bomb – her best friend lost her sight – she works for an international aid organisation for women – ominous signs; ‘She was quick, clever, brimming with push.’ – she does not read social undercurrents.
136-140 – Ravi becomes friends with Nimal Corea – build website in dial up mode – ‘Yahoo,’ ‘Surfing the net,’ ‘Place had come undone – Jennifer Ringley in revealing website – ‘Jennifer Ringley was a new type of person…wanted to give everyone a really open, honest view into her life.’ – tyrants had wanted to spy – ‘disembodied travel’ – ‘Soon everyone will be a tourist’ – Malini searches for human rights sites on internet – speaks of remains found in a mass grave – ‘Bodies are always local – story of eight year old raped nightly by her father, protected by corrupt authorities.
##141-147 – Laura and Theo discuss travel – ‘Isn’t that the point? Discovering things?’ – ‘no past in tourism…no time for time to accrue.’- Laura- ‘I hope for the moment when what I know turns strange.’ – they share enthusiasms – Laura feels connected to Theo – ‘He has come for me.’ – Theo introduced Meera Brydon from Wayfarer magazine for potential job – Laura recalls brief affair in Strasbourg – sees Cathedral ‘scene of a disaster’…’something couldn’t be looked at- it could only be encountered – image of giant bat turned to stone – Emile’s story of opening hotel window and screaming due to sight of black rock face – jolt delivered by strangeness – first step on the road to disenchantment – time marker; current schoolgirl murder movie with Kate Winslet (Heavenly Creatures 1994) – Theo in slow decline; no longer pleads when friends leave house in Hampstead, junk spreading – Laura’s gruesome ‘misdirected memories’
148-151 – Malini shares brutal stories of war atrocities after ‘shameless, experimental, bold, sex. – Hiran growing up, playing with local boys eg ‘bomb’ game– Malini’s dispute with Deepti Pieris – has ‘thug of a brother-in-law’ – office bullying – Ravi’s ‘world wide web’ associated with Malini’s ‘glistening mesh’ on their wedding night – woman has her kidnapped husband’s eyeball’s delivered in a box –Ravi worried about Malini’s activities – ‘Be careful.’
152-4 – Laura goes to live in Naples; will write for Wayfarer – Theo gives her the red tea pot as a farewell present – Laura cries.
155-162 – Naples airport carousel as ‘a melancholy rubber stream.’ De K uses imagery to create atmosphere for Laura’s arrival in Naples – lost but loves it -# – voice of soap opera in Vivienne’s flat – ‘Whispering wall’ – time marker; death of Princess Diana – 158 – sensual imagery of the cloister – ‘Naples chose secrets and revelations’ – Laura followed dingy street – ‘unpromising stair’ – travel as ‘treasure hints of childhood: mysteries, astonishments, gifts that weren’t delivered but earned.’ – Donald Fraser, Laura’s father, gives her a digital camera – had sent random money at erratic times – saw Laura 4-5 times in 10 years – had ‘occasional lacerating thoughts of his child far from reach and defenceless in the world.’ – Donald sees Laura ‘ shrank in memory…too solid flesh(Hamlet)…the runt was no longer young.’ Laura makes him aware of his own desertion of …full bodied prime – 160 – # used camera in travels to capture shapes, colours, textures- Sicily – Laura to stay until following summer- Laura turns 34 – ‘the evening held the knowledge of passing unnoticed in the world. Where was the gaze that would gather up her worthlessness and invest it with loving sense? – neighbour crying for Diana ‘She was only a shorthand for the unbearable sadness of being (Kundera ‘lightness’) – ‘Back teeth together’ Laura’a mantra under stress – time marker ‘Hallelujah – death of Jeff Buckley # ‘Laura Fraser sat alone, and turned her heavy rings, and wished what everyone wishes.’
163-166 – Nimal Corea leaves university – Malini influenced by new executive at the NGO, Freda Hobson – Ravi gets a passport – considering overseas position knowing that Malini would never agree – increased security unease; ‘But in that skirt, she looked like a target, standing there against the wall.’
167-177 – Laura has brief affair with Marco, who runs an art gallery – trades in Tiwi carved poles – issue of value and authenticity – first person Laura knows with a mobile phone – Theo visits; trying to drink less, bought her a ruby red glass star ‘A tiny object in the night.’ – had ‘glassy, high-storeyed, empty’ conversations – something ‘iron’ still present – asks Laura to marry him – refuses but would have wanted a child 12 months prior – controlled to please interaction ‘Once we didn’t have to be careful with each other…; – late night calls – television through walls. ‘Night wakefulness is distinctive, sublime and blurred, consciousness peering though a caul.’ – no one calls.
178-182 – Deepti Pieris resigns from the NGO – dinner in chinese restaurant ‘Ravi realised that he never looked closely at anything. Knowing what he would see, he paid it only scant attention; the world and his wife passed in a blur. But she was a woman concocted from spells.’ – Ravi jealous of Freda – Malini speaks powerfully against torture and for human rights – ‘A schoolgirl was keeping a capital-letter promise: I RESOLVE NOT TO LIVE MY LIFE IN VAIN.’
Ravi has lesbian fantasies in on line sites.
183-186 – Laura was constantly travelling for her work – ‘She was inert, strapped into place, yet hurtling and fast-forwarded.’ – travel creating multiple identities – ‘Laura Fraser was a late twentieth-century global person. Geography was beside the point.’ – series of observations on many locations – justice for the flower seller ‘…justice would yet be done, her species’ great, vague, consolatory fiction – Laura’s travel leaves her with a lot of ‘intractable matter.’
187-188 – Ravi finds Malini’s mutilated body on the television – ‘The whole arrangement resembled a vase from which outlandish flowers of feet and hands emerged on fleshy stalks.’ – Ravi feints as he sees his name scratched in her shin.
189-199 – Hiran found dead in the street – light narrative tone to reinforce sense of individual helplessness, horror and cruelty ‘The Mercedes was a novel touch. As a rule, a white van was preferred.’ – Detective’s advice/warning to Ravi ‘Don’t you think there are questions it’s better not to ask? His tone was pleasant and conversational. He said, ‘You’re lucky. You know they’re dead.’ – Ravi looked after by Freda Hobson ‘Light moved through him unimpeded…’ the banyan tree ‘ encompassed all that was unimaginable: the future, for one thing, or the last minutes of his son’s life.’ – anger at Malini for his son’s death – Nimal Corea sets up a website to Malini and Hiran – for Ravi everything ‘had the overlarge quality of a film.’ – Ravi disembodied; surprised to see his hand – Freda; ‘He’s just not making connections.’ – But the internet, abolishing distance, undermined relativity; it offered sapphire and plastic with an even hand.’ – Ravi recalls argument with Malini about her connection with torture victims – she taunts about his coffee pots site – ‘Global, connected: that was how Ravi pictured Freda Hobson’s life.’ Ravi jumpy at door knocks – communication gap grows between Ravi and Freda – media coverage of murder overtaken by talk of ceasefire ‘…hope of a swift resolution to the conflict, flickered and went out.’
200-204 – Theo’s old crowd dispersing – Laura dreads time alone with Theo – his drinking spins slowly out of control – Laura becomes intensely nostalgic for Sydney ‘jacaranda haunting…’ – keeps thinking ‘What are you doing here?’ – another silent phone call.
205-211 – Ravi returns to work – ‘he looked as if someone had forgotten to inflate him.’ – dark thoughts symbolised by the ‘black square of the banyan’ – he counts to ward off his dark thoughts – ‘806 and counting’ shows the depth of his despair – Ravi finds living with Freda increasingly difficult, in spite of her kindness – not allowed to return to old boarding house – ‘Could put a bomb’ – old suitcase returned – Ravi feels bouts of anger that he did not ‘act decisively, impressed the need for caution on Malini, he should have insisted and banned.’ – ironic luck – ‘He even knew that the two people he loved best in the world were dead.’ – Ravi listens to Freda’s discman obsessively – wants to reconnect to internet – sees open pages of NGO recorded atrocities – Ravi advised to ‘let bygones be bygones’ as police ordered to do nothing about Malini’s murder – Ravi has visions of Hiran – stops washing his body as an act of mourning and grief.
212-216 – death of Theo – Laura distraught – learns that Theo’s memories were stories told by his mother – Laura cries in the street and is comforted by strangers – starts to recover after some weeks – ‘Forgetting was the real meaning of death.’ ‘Life asserted itself as one small betrayal of the dead after another.’ Laura starts to think of food.
217-222 – Ravi sent a ‘frightener’ – ‘…a stylised drawing of a vase of flowers.’ – Ravi moved to different locations – receives another drawing – Freda arranges for a secret Australian contact to get a visa for Ravi.
223-233 – a ‘dreamlike’ time for Ravi – ‘the struggle against memory exacted its revenge.’ – sometimes unable to move – ‘For the first time, he registered: They are gone.’ – sees visions of Malini – eventually starts to breathe and eat – ‘Evil was a real thing. Ravi had seen it-it had looked like a vase.’ – Ravi acts as a tourist – has a variety of disturbing and satisfying dreams – tale of local roadside horrors – little boy runs to bus; Ravi ‘undone.’ – speed of tourists compared to casual pace of locals ‘Tourists see invisible things.’ – Ravi gets a visa and Freda buys him a ticket to Australia.
234 – time marker – Sydney Olympics – booing and ‘rat-smile’ of PM Howard – Laura buys a ticket to Sydney.
235-242 – Ravi has a farewell at Priya’s house – Varunika, Ravi’s sister, works in Tanzania – Ravi has a last walk on the beach – ‘…the gravity of the last time.’ But he was ‘enmeshed in his thoughts…and noticed almost nothing that he passed.’ – Priya and Ravi have an enjoyable well shower – Ravi finds Hiran’s lost toy viewfinder – Freda takes Ravi to the airport and gives him a detailed folder of Malini – he puts Freda’s phone down the toilet in revenge at her role in Malini’s death – he realises she did it for her father – ‘Do you think it was worth it?’ he thinks angrily, in the most bitter of rhetorical questions.
245-6 – Laura returns to Sydney – lives in her father’s house with her ‘anaesthetising stepmother’ – cool invitation to family Christmas in Portsea.
247-256 – Immigration lawyer Angie Segal looks after Ravi – starts his long walks ‘Everything bore the glaze of strangeness…’ – only some flowers and the smell of the sea familiar – range of strong impressions – physical descriptions – Ravi can only remember unimportant details when giving statement to Angie – boards in sleepout with Hazel Costigan in Hurlestone Park, with Fair Play the dog as his main companion – cannot bear picture on wall – hides then removes it – examples of Australian attitudes to refugees.
257-259 – Laura joins Ramsey Publishing – ‘The world of work. She heard doors sliding shut.’ – lives with journalist Danni Holt in a warehouse.
260-267 – Ravi exhausts himself walking in his first months ‘but he couldn’t outwalk Australia…’ – enjoys watching Circular Quay view that he had long known on a postcard.
268-276 – Laura details the endless list of administrative tasks required in her role at Ramsay’s office – taunted by Alan Ramsey’s tales of his luxury adventures.
277-281 – Ravi gets weekly aerogramme from mother, emails from Priya in Sri Lanka and Varunika in Tanzania – Nimal Corea leaves his failing IT business; opens internet café on a southern beach with his brother – links to concluding scenes – Ravi dreams of Hiran – removes picture from under his bed.
282-286 – Ravi gets job at Banksia Gardens Aged care facility – keeps him busy enough to stop thinking about his past – gets his own computer – sees his old website with Nimal – reminds him of Malini – # ‘the web had grown from usefulness into beauty. It was as complex and various as a world. The web was like that (Circular Quay), a city of strangers and connections…’ Hazel feels old and sad at constantly losing people – sees people wanting to escape the sleepout – Ravi surprises her – gives extra board money to asylum seekers charity -Freda sends Ravi some wedding cake.
287-293 – Damo takes Ravi on a series of Sunday drives to explore the Sydney region – Ravi sees a Sri Lankan family with a boy of Hiran’s age; pretends they are Indians – Ravi friendly with Ethiopian nurse’s aid; very moved by group singing, reminiscent of his family on Saturday evenings, with some songs in common – recalls Malini singing to Hiran – Ravi almost forced to count as he had done to calm his mind in Sri Lanka; but hums instead.
294-295 – 9/11 Twin Towers destroyed by terrorist plane hijackings – low plane has become a threatening sight – ‘It was an everyday sight that had been altered forever.’ – Laura thinks of the ‘vast and pitiless trap of school.’ – reminds her of Hester.
296-298 – Laura moves to McMahon’s Point to share house with Carlo Ferri – to help with roof garden.
299-307 – satire on office gossip of trivial, self centred values – visions of Sydney at night – Tracy Lacey visits to look for old paintings of Hugo Drummond – Laura was ‘fearing that she might be slipping, slipping into the Great Australian Smugness…’
308-311 – Ravi appalled at consumer waste – Varunika calls; considering coming to Australia – Ravi regrets not being more welcoming – Ravi’s immigration case delayed – dreams of home and soldiers’ brutality – ‘There’s no limit to how far pleasures, of solidarity in work, of making and learning…’ ‘Lack of a tolerable alternative: that was why people put up with it. As to how; by paying attention, Laura saw that ambition was useful. Ditto intrigue, adultery, gossip. Myth.’ – Laura reflects on dedication to a larger cause; travel as a good thing; could not connect her travel with her daily work – ‘But something true hadn’t turned out, after all, to be the same thing as the truth.’ Laura feels ‘comprehensive fraudulence’ in her relations with her colleagues.
319-324 – Damo’s excursions stop happening – Ravi starts going on mystery flights all over Australia – refugees in detention camps sewing lips – But what Ravi took home was the knowledge of how kind Australians could be.’ – Ravi dreams that Varunika comes to Australia – misery of nursing home patients.
325-329 – Carlo’s cologne takes Laura back to Italy – Sunday meals together – ‘They painted out towards the edge of the canvas, filling in the past for each other.’
330-337 – Ravi picnics with Abebe, Hana and Tarik – notices cultural differences – Ravi’s mother Carmel dies – he sees lots of messages on Malini’s online website.
338-344 – Laura strips for Carlo after Sunday dinner; he pays her rent in return – Ravi calls family over his mother’s death – old injustices haunt him – Laura explores internet – encounter with the Asian fishermen – another anonymous phone call – regrets not speaking to the lost young boy.
345-351 – Ravi mourns his mother on her funeral day – possible relationship with Hana; her background; more death in war – meets Irish girl Keira in cemetery – has sex back at her flat; gives her wrong email address to stop contact – feels Malini’s presence again.
352-355 – Laura argues with Carlo about impressions of Naples – ceremonial peacock feather on Carlo’s twisted feet – ‘the deep past was dangerous’ – Iraq invasion begins – Ferdinand Hello’s mother’s brutal death in war.
356-362 – Ravi’s appeal rejected – suspects Deepti Patel as informer – imagines vicious revenge – Varunika’s false memories – Ravi feels Angie Segal does not even care or believe in his cases – but ‘She didn’t know how Ravi Mendis managed to go on living.’ – Damo recognises Ravi’s taboo about Hazel’s picture of her boys growing up – Ravi’s banyan tree fear grows as he recalls atrocities from the war – Hazel wants Ravi to take shorter showers but she ‘would see eyes that had peered into hell.’
363-366 – Laura begins affair with Paul Hinkel after global marketing conference – Laura passively follows his directions – satire on ‘buzz’ and ‘vibe’ of office culture and post conference hijinks.
367-371 – Laura continues affair in a state of ‘dreamy benevolence’ – she sometimes hears the old voice of ‘What are you doing here? But there was the human wish for an end to loneliness.’ – Laura’s first meeting with Ravi ‘the new web guy’ – office satire continues.
372-378 – Ravi compares work environments – disturbed by flowers ‘…jammed into a vase…’ – ‘Thus tourists, trying to decipher strangeness, compare home and here.’ – souvenirs as a record of travel – ‘Keep moving, love! remembered Ravi. Whatever you do, don’t stop! ‘ – ‘but what he noticed was the magic of money.’ – early reflections on working at Ramsays – Damo had convinced Tyler to take Ravi on – Tyler thought it would boost his flagging career – Crystal Bowles exhibits her ignorance, and that of the general population about refugees – ‘to boost their line that boat people can be treated like shit.’
379-387 – Laura works on her appearance during affair with Paul Hinkel – ‘you dreamed of working at Ramsay because you loved travel…Thereafter, what you knew of travel was your daily commute.’ – Laura dashes to see lost child – she reviews her limited knowledge of Paul Hinkel – ‘At saner intervals, Laura could see that the only future his tenderness implied was retrospective.’ – Thus Laura substituted fantasy for history…’ – she tries to be friendly to Ravi, after Paul suggested he was a ‘nice guy.’ – Laura realises there will be little left of Paul Hinkel ‘when it’s over.’ – she sees this relationship as a legacy of her refusal of Theo’s marriage proposal – ‘So now it was necessary to persist…The dead are called ghosts, but what name could she assign to the never-were?’ – Laura losing interest in roof top garden – works quickly when Alice Merton visits – Alice reveals more of Carlo’s past connections with Rosalba.
388-392 – Ravi has tea at Paul Hinkel’s house – they show Ravi their old Sri Lankan tourist photos – ‘The past reconfigured itself as scenery – Martene, Paul’s wife, has trouble suppressing received racist ideas – ‘Long ago, people she loved had taught her that black skin harbours germs.’ – gives Ravi a souvenir spoon to cover her concerns – ‘Martene knew that Paul had spotted the anomaly.’
393-401 – Ravi intrigued by Crystal Bowles – sees his workplace as a ‘labyrinth’ – links hibiscus flowers to the old sideboard in the blue house – developing relationship with Hana – she shows her homeland class prejudice – ‘At home, I’d never speak to people like that.’ – Ravi takes bus trips on the weekends to explore Sydney – sees Sydney as an outsider still – ‘She might have stepped from a spacecraft dispatched by a superior civilisation’ – his trips lead him to suggest Western Sydney be included in the new Sydney guide – debate of stereotypes – Crystal’s shallow judgements revealed.
402-406 – Laura has lunch at her father’s unit – satire on deluxe renovations of previous Bellevue Hill mansion – her brother Cameron confers with her about getting money from the sale of the family home – Donald Fraser in early stages of dementia – continues cruel and critical thoughts on Laura.
407-410 – Ravi and his sisters argue over selling their mother’s house – Ravi invited to lunch with their mother’s cousin – feels warmth of family connections – their daughter Tania brings recent photos from Sri Lanka – ceasefire in place – old house and names have changed – Ravi gets new phone with sms function.
411-418 – Paul Hinkel visits Bali with Martene- marks a change for Laura – but ‘Now that she judged and condemned, her craving was consuming and pure.’ – satire on office ‘chinese whispers’ on falsely rumoured Chinese takeover.
419-424 – Abbebe tells Ravi that Hana had a seven month old son who died of SIDS – they visit the University Campus at Parramatta – for Ravi ‘Hana was a landscape smoothed by distance; up close, the weather struck.’ – Ravi sees Malini briefly in the water but hears Hiran locked in a sandstone building – Ravi sees Hana’s ambitions as ‘steps carved into a golden mountain.’ – Hana’s agonising question – ‘Is my son completely dead? – is never forgotten by Ravi.
424-427 – Nimal Corea bemoans failed plan to marry American divorcee and live overseas – Ravi and Hana see each other every weekend – Hana is enthusiastic about her ambitions – ‘He wanted to divulge their symmetry.’ – Martene Hinkel calls Ravi late at night looking for Paul – Ravi dreamily considers an intrigue – ‘Ravi thought of a child whose face was the only bright thing in the room. He remembered the tortured tree.’ (at Paul’s house)
428-432 – Paul drives over to Laura’s flat – ‘ I can’t live without you.’ – they make love twice and fall asleep together – they look at the city from the roof and both realise that the affair has to end – ‘A clean break. It’s cleaner.’ Laura disappoints Carlo – ‘How dare he expect. Let him taste what she did twice a week in a motel, naked, waiting, certain it was all over.’ – ‘…an accumulation of silence…was already thickening afresh over their disruptive moans.’ –‘…traces of a pattern called Laura Fraser and Paul Hinkel twinkled through the dusty coat of indifference that time slapped over everything in the end.’ – Laura realises that she was a fool as Carlo was loved by Drummond but she was not loved by Paul.
433-438 – Ravi sees Laura as upholstery; ‘an armchair advanced across the concrete, bearing a mug.’ – Laura criticises Paul ‘talking to an invisible figure at his shoulder.’ – sees Ravi regularly in the car park – Ravi divided about whether to stay in Australia or not – he sees Hana as one of the ‘newcomers with their faces set to the future.’ – ‘In his life, too, everything vital had already happened. He felt too tired to start again.’ – Freda Hobson and Angie Segal discuss Ravi’s difficulties – following a harbour cruise, ‘He believed, then, that he wanted to stay.’
439-443 – Laura starts to struggle with motivation at work; ‘The pettiness of her work overwhelmed her…the unremitting busyness of office work obscured its triviality.’ – Laura tries to talk to Paul Hinkel at work but he ignores her – she comes to enjoy her conversations with Ravi in the car park – ‘Ravi was easy company: a stocky, silent, handsome man.’ – Ravi and Laura play a Sri Lankan child’s game with the flower blossoms.
444-449 – Ravi visits Hana to profess his love but is unable to go through with it – Hana and Ravi both realise it would be a mistake – Ravi speaks to Malini – ‘Unbolting the side gate, he spoke to a dead woman: Did you really think I would leave you?’
450-453 – Laura urges Robyn Orr to go for new CEO job – Robyn recalls Cliff’s inappropriate touching after last year’s conference party.
454-462 –## Ravi and Angie Segal present his case to a sceptical immigration appeals board – ‘What he really wanted to say was. Sir member, you are making the same mistake I did: you are looking for clues and connections. What happened has no plot, it’s only true.’ – the board member shows his lack of empathy and knowledge by suggesting that vase drawing could be a joke; ‘All the devils were one and the same…’ – board reserves its decision – trivial office conversations contrasted with Ravi’s thoughts – ‘Bodies are always local, whispered Malini the spoilsport.’ ‘When Hiran’s photo appeared in answer to Ravi’s summons, he spoke to his son silently: In 2000, someone slit your throat.’ – people in office change ‘the look of the day.’
463-470 – Laura has lunch with old friend Charlie Fraser – ‘Laura had gone looking for the past and found a bad copy.’ – she sees a couple in a house opposite with ‘narrative, progression, symbol.’ – notices these aspects missing in her life and decides to go away – her apparently exciting trips for the magazine had only been ‘interludes’ – ‘real life was Sydney’ – ‘The world waited like a lighted, veiled room: a vague, bright amplitude. What am I doing here? she wondered – ‘It seemed to Laura that her faith in away, too, had been lost.’ – Laura shows Carlo last years photos of the roof garden – Australian Federal Election ‘between two bullies.’ – warning of the vase of waratahs. – strong disconnect between Ravi’s culture and experience and the shallow commercial culture of Ramsay publishing – Ravi given asylum – decides to go back to Sri Lanka – ‘I’m frightened of going back. But I’m frightened of what will happen if I stay in Australia, too.’ – ‘I don’t want to be a tourist in my own country…’
478-482 – Laura uses a Sri Lankan tourists guide book to confer with Ravi about travel options – she had revealed to him about ‘getting away’ and is to arrive two days after Ravi – when Ravi thinks of going home ‘The truth was that a light-filled hollow opened inside him at the thought, and he was free to assign it any meaning he chose.’ – conflicting impressions of Sri Lankan tourism – Angie shows Ravi a drawing of the execution methods used in the Columbian civil wars ‘I don’t want you to leave here thinking that the way she was killed was personal.’ .– ‘If you go back, I truly believe you’ll be at risk.’ – Ravi realises ‘he had behaved badly with both women’ (Freda and Angie) – Ravi saw himself strapped to a seat inside a silver capsule, wafted back and forth across sunsets; a connoisseur of clouds, he belonged nowhere.’ – Angie raises the possibility of children – ‘What Angie hadn’t understood was that some sweets are flavoured with ashes.’ – literal and metaphorical promise after hearing nothing from Malini ‘But overhead a promise appeared: quite soon now, the train that he needed would arrive.’
483-485 – Laura discusses Paul Hinkel’s application for CEO – finds out that his next child was conceived during Bali trip – she understands his fear and her level of betrayal by Paul.
486-488 – Paul’s baby boy born – Carlo notices her sorrow – feels guilty for ruining his garden – wants to striptease for Carlo one last time – ‘This time, Laura hadn’t mistaken his meaning. No one was asking her to stay.’ – echoes Hester’s thoughts when leaving London.
489-495 – The Ramsay Publishing office Christmas party – Laura plans to visit Nimal Corea’s internet café on the Sri Lankan south coast – ‘Having imagined her triumphant, he saw now that the multitude she left was in flight.’ – Ravi is presented with an ipod – ‘Gripping a paper bag, descending into obscurity, Ravi wanted to howl, Please keep me from making a terrible mistake.’ – he flees in panic when Cliff receives a vase in the shape of a human torso – Laura runs him outside and dances drunkenly – Ravi farts and the moment is ended.
496-502 – Laura packs up her flat – provokes memories of buying clothes for Paul – ‘What an idiotic obsession, she thought…’ – Tracey Lacey arrives to look at Drummond’s works – Laura leaves the red star as ‘a tiny object in the night’ in memory of Theo – ‘she didn’t want to leave only darkness behind when she went.’ – Laura misses her father’s phone call as she is on the roof cutting back the dead plants – Donald Fraser is suffering from dementia – ‘Donald explained that he had been trying to get through to the runt for years. But whenever her voice was greeted at the other end of the line, Donald would realise that it was too late to call.’
503-509 – Hana, Abebe and Tarik show Ravi the local Christmas lights – Hana says ‘It’s like a different country, all these people out in the streets at night.’ – Damo disappointed at Ravi’s decision to return, after showing Ravi his ‘special places.’ – Hazel gives Ravi a photo album – he notices Fair Play’s greying hair ‘The photo showed him a change to which he had been blind in life.’ – Ravi notices the ‘lilac’ women going past their car repeatedly ‘So ghosts are said to walk through walls.’- Ravi had been transfixed by the lights – the lit floating ship would remain ‘a radiant prospect.’ – ‘So that’s what I’ve become, thought Ravi, a man whose best hope is avoidance. He remembered when the whole world had floated before him, a ship of possibility.’ – Hana’s ‘attention had swung away from Ravi – he kisses her cheek goodbye – ‘He saw that she had never been available anyway: she belonged to that winner, the future.’ – ‘There was a glint in the corner of his eye.’ – he sees ‘broken glass.’ – he remembers the lilac woman ‘but they were moving a different speeds.’ – Ravi finds Hiran’s broken viewfinder ‘Sitting their on his heels, Ravi could see that the picture wasn’t going to change. He went on clicking for quite a long time.’
510-515 – Laura’s connecting flight from Bangkok to Columbo forced to turn around due to engine trouble ‘…they had never expected to die in the company of a bald man in tracksuit pants and a child vomiting on his mother’s shoes.’ – ‘Time stretched, sagged, snapped, sang.’ – this prevents her meeting Ravi and his family so she decides to go straight to the south coast – ‘It was the unforeseen that returned tourism to travel.’ – Laura contemplated her future – ‘What could she do that wouldn’t stun with busyness, lull with routine, infect with compromise like a slow, fatal blight?’ – ‘But tourism existed to postpone such questions…she was conscious of joy…The magic land existed. It had to – hadn’t Laura always known it? She would find it yet: in the depths of a wardrobe, at the top of a faraway tree.’ – Laura sends money to Carlo to buy new plants for the rooftop garden – ‘She would change her life, she would start over.’ – Laura starts a friendship with Nimal Corea – tsunami warnings not heard by Laura and misunderstood by Nimal – Paul Hinkel sends a blank email – ‘Laura could read his blank letter any way she chose. As she pondered its intent, there came a great shuddering sigh as if the whole planet were sorrowing…the cook’s attention claimed by a blue car surfing a black wave.’ – Nimal is slow to emerge from an erotic fantasy concerning Laura – last image of the novel is of an expensive Sydney harbour mansion – ‘It was white and storeyed with a view of water from every room.’